Saturday, November 28, 2009
he asked me the other day..
did your mom ask why you suddenly wanna go home?. i said
oh. hahaha. nope! all she said was "yes! syukur alhamdulillah. bila balik?" like super enthusiastically!! and continued to fake a laugh to show how it was a good thing and that im happy i decided to go home for winter.
hm. can't believe im saying this but, despite still feeling hurt (less) and feeling much better about myself and acting less pathetic than i actually feel.. i feel like i was a stepping stone to you. someone to help pass the time and have fun with while waiting for the right person to come along. i feel so.. accessible like i was always there; ready and available.
on my part though, i saw it coming. i turned out to be either impossibly hopeful or blisfully ignorant. i just didnt know it would turn out this way so soon, so fast, so ugly and i end up hurting a lot more than i thought i would. and when you said those words i already knew in my head.. it made everything so real. so final. and now all i'm doing is trying to move on. wait. no. not trying. i am moving on.
i think i even lost a bit of faith in love. i know it's out there.. im just not sure if it's for everyone. honestly though, you're a bit of a douche. but we had a great time while it lasted. i'm happy for you and her. wish i could tell u that... at least one of us are.
so. yeah! i met
someone new. well, sorta new. dont know how it's gonna turn out though. scared. but will just hafta wait and see how it goes. i'm looking forward to that. and home. 4 weeks of r&r, drama free. filled with people i love and i know who love me back. and oh. books - -" hopefully by the end of it, i'll be super fly i wont have a care in the world for all the dramas around.
live & learn. gambatte kara!! ;D
kawa Boo! blogged at 4:04 pm
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Wednesday, November 25, 2009
I.AM.SUPER.HAPPY!!
Just bought my flight ticket to Msia on the 18th Dec. OMG! That's in only THREE WEEKS! Mama even got us a weekend in Koh Samui for Xmas. Lol. Happy.Happy.Joy.Joy. Even though I'm currently for the first time, super broke... I bought my tickets back home for summer break and it's for MAS! Woot! Woot!! In-flight entertainment. Lol.
Now, all i need to worry about is reaching all my deadlines in omg. three short weeks! so lazzyyyy... sigh. finish work. go home. happy. study for exam. come back. exam. cycle of learning starts again. weeeee - -"
kawa Boo! blogged at 12:21 pm
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i find that... family gives you love and security. limitless, mind you. and while they are away (a million miles apart or if they're just at work or even if they're at the back of the house), friends helps get you through life. they make everything seem easier, effortless and with the right people, time flies by.
i'm greatful for my childhood friend who has taught me alot about life(tasha)
i'm greatful for my kindergarten best friend(some chinese girl)
i'm greatful for my groupie in primary school before PTS
i'm greatful for nikiee who has ever since ALWAYS been there with me without fail.
i'm greatful for jaasy and my super fun highschool classmates who never cease to be spontaneous; i remember the most from form 2 and form 4/5
i'm greatful for my bffs and fatimah-ians in college for making boarding life something i now miss
i'm greatful for the past year. a lot was going on but time flew by so fast i didnt wanna leave bath!
i'm greatful for... having had the best 20 years of friendship i can ever imagine.
now. i just miss home. mom. dad. sisters. brothers? basicly family. my cats. sylvia.. cause without friends. well. im exaggerating but yeah. without friends, time doesn't fly by and hey, you get
extra homesick! LOL.
*drama... begone!*
kawa Boo! blogged at 9:55 am
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Monday, November 23, 2009
spain trip in december's cancelled. so choices :
(i) US. cheapest flights but i am without a visa ;/(ii) Canada. expensive flights AND expensive visa. sigh (iii) Japan. pricy but still affordable. AYRA!!
(iv) Malaysia. home sweet home. but even more pricy than Japan. missing mom.
hmmm...
kawa Boo! blogged at 11:52 pm
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Sunday, November 22, 2009
nikiee's in adelaide... i need to tell her... but she won't pick up the phone... prolly cause she's asleep by now... but.
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I BOUGHT
TICKETS TO MELBOURNE ALREADYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!! WOOT! WOOT!!!! WOOHOOOOO!!! *BENGONG IM SUPER EXCITED!*
i even have my "visa" all ready ^^
...now need to plan to visit shiewa, jason and gang! <3
kawa Boo! blogged at 2:03 pm
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Thursday, November 19, 2009
annual meteor showerwent up to uni with shaun and biey. met up with zee. walked to the golf course. crossed over a brick fence. loved the atmosphere; creepy half dead trees. pitch black. strong wind rustling the leaves. starry night. love love love.
it was super cold so we all lay on the "18th hole" greens side by side shaped like a rectangle with 4 heads in the middle. hoho. of all, we only managed to see 6 meteors but the 2nd one was super awesome!!! biggest, longest, brightest we've ever seen! hoho. nik and mariam did their own thing so i have no idea if they even saw anything.
less than 2 hours later, we subconciously stopped looking at the stars and were just there huddled to keep the warmth. lol. so ended up going to the library and getting 4 hot chocs for the each of us. it was nice. super tired. headed home. slept.
best night of the semester! no doubt.
kawa Boo! blogged at 8:55 am
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Wednesday, November 04, 2009
i wonder what happened to atuk. hmmmm.. chazmeh?
kawa Boo! blogged at 2:15 pm
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