Monday, May 21, 2012

One thing I think I lack most and something I am envious of a lot of people is - PASSION. I wish I have something I can just dive into and immerse myself with. And no matter how tiring or how difficult it gets, it still ends up being something that is worth all that effort.

Gah! Now I can see why going to school is so much easier.. People tell me what to do, and that somewhat gives me a direction. AND all the while I get to whine all about it if it doesn't turn out great - like biology in form 3 :/

I wish I knew what I want to do in life! I mean, I know people say sometimes it takes a long time to find out what you really REALLY want in life, assuming that you're lucky enough to even find out at all! I guess that's the big question. What's my purpose in life? I'm not talking about religion, mind you. In that sense I am not doubting that I do have a purpose.

Anyone can have a job; it can be a part time job at 7-eleven, or a full time job as an engineer. But I think what I really wanna do is have a job that would leave a mark here for when I leave (wow this is so cliche). In short, I wanna save the world -.- That's about the vaguest thing I've ever said. And I know it's impossible to literally save the world, but every little thing helps. Right? Ughh... I don't wanna fix things like air-conditioners and build better roads for drivers all my life (was looking through government jobs at JKR)!

Then again, I might be asking too much. As much as I want to be different, to be outstanding and to be special, I am average. At least that's what university has made me realised. It's really sad and definitely not something I expected to learn when I first reached Bath. Back in first year, everything was so open to possibilities. No exam results or work experience to pin point my level in society. Just hope and dreams for a bright future.

It's a little infuriating to be honest. Even after going through years and years of education, there is still so much more for me to learn. Courses to pass. Experience to gain. It's never ending really. Sigh. Need to stop whining and just suck it up. That's life. Tough luck.

Listening to my internal clock ticking doesn't help either. Pffft. Though, rationally it is something that I shouldn't be worried about. Right?

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Friday, April 29, 2011

Now, you're just someone I sometimes think twice about :)

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Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Sometimes, there is comfort in engulfing self with work :)

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Saturday, April 16, 2011

All those time he takes you for granted, make you doubt yourself and bring out the worst in you... makes me wonder if he's worth it. Even though you say he is.

I love you B. I hope he realises just how wonderful you are and how lucky he is to have you in his life.

I surprisingly don't feel bad for advising you to do what is something entirely against my own principles. Nonetheless, I'm sorry.

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Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Attention seeking but unselfish, difficult but within reason, loving but fearful, resilient but fragile. Paranoid and passionate.

Few things I find myself to be.

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Sunday, February 27, 2011

What just happened.

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Sunday, February 20, 2011

Passion... it's a must :)

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Sunday, February 13, 2011

I thought I wanted it... Now I'm not so sure.

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Thursday, February 10, 2011

Eh.

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Friday, January 14, 2011

Die larrrrrr!!!!!!! Exam! Exam! Exam! Exam!!! So many essays :3

I miss the good ol' days when everything was numerical.

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Saturday, January 01, 2011

Eh. I'm getting there.

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Wednesday, December 08, 2010

Why do I?

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Friday, November 26, 2010

I guess Nikiee was right all these years when she said I can be really mean... Eeeh. I always thought it was my goody-goody conscience.

You'd prolly never read this, but sorry Ivan ;/

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I don't know what went wrong...

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Sunday, November 21, 2010

I miss you...

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Tuesday, November 09, 2010

First moves... are made by guys, is that right??? But if the girl has to lead the guy on so that he knows she is interested, that doesn't count does it. The guy then doesn't necessarily is the one to kick it off.

So it's a two-way thing then?? Or is it that the girl is oblivious and the guy lets his heart out and then the girl figures things out.

Eh. I don't know :3 Confused. Silly social standards.

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Friday, July 16, 2010

Something I agree but unwillingly accept is the fact that... ex-es, especially the firsts, you don't really forget them nor do you stop loving them. I guess you just move on. Which is to still love them but it's not necessarily enough to be with them. Wait. Thats kindda confusing. Hm. Nvm. I know what I mean.


But just fyi, that sucks ;)

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