Wednesday, July 28, 2010

I feel better.... I didn't even notice I wasn't feeling too good. Hm. I like.

kawa Boo! blogged at 7:26 am

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Tuesday, July 27, 2010

I have the urge to buy myself something for my birthday... even though it's a few weeks after my actual birthday. Hm. PSP? Tiffany? Sun glasses? Chiko? Unlimited Sushi for a day? lol

kawa Boo! blogged at 3:42 pm

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Sunday, July 25, 2010

Darn... I feel bad for lashing out like that. But. At least it serves as a good outlet? Like, instead of actually strangling her, I just say that I want to. Lol. Okay okay. I need to stop being so overly dramatic and really bitter. I really will have to try and make a new circle of friends. I think it's what's best for me. Insyallah.

kawa Boo! blogged at 11:25 am

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Dammit! Dammit! Dammit!!! She's back! Omg I just wanna effing curse through out this wholeeeeeeeeeeee post!! And just when I thought I was in the clear. Ugh! All that hard work. Gone to waste. Just to let everything come to this. Oh, the fake smiles. I don't wanna go through even another second of that; having to keep reminding myself that it isn't so bad. I use to have something to look forward to - only having to keep up with the charade for just a few months just until she leaves. To keep the peace. But now. Oh gee golly. Congrats on being able to do your masters in Bath.

I need a new circle of friends.


;(

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Friday, July 23, 2010

Bored... So bored.

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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

I am determined... erh. Ish. If I cant go to the gym. The gym will come to me! Lol. I sound ridiculous. I bet its the after effects of (wanting to) exercise.

;))

kawa Boo! blogged at 2:42 pm

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Friday, July 16, 2010

Something I agree but unwillingly accept is the fact that... ex-es, especially the firsts, you don't really forget them nor do you stop loving them. I guess you just move on. Which is to still love them but it's not necessarily enough to be with them. Wait. Thats kindda confusing. Hm. Nvm. I know what I mean.


But just fyi, that sucks ;)

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Wednesday, July 14, 2010

I hate how the thought keeps lingering.

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Monday, July 12, 2010

I don't know why. I didn't go. It seems childish, maybe. Or even selfish. But I don't like funerals. People cry, wail and even if they don't you can see the look on their faces. And it just... sucks the life out of you.

At funerals people mourn, they reflect what had happened - try to go over the deceased's last few hours alive, praise for their life's achievements and their good deeds and most importantly pray for them in their after life. People try to wrap the idea around their head that this person has actually moved on. He left. Gone. Body buried in the ground. For some, people accept this though it can be at different rates. Some may wail till their eyes get all puffy, some may stare into nothing and feel numb from the world, some may just be there to comfort others. Either way, emotional roller coasters are unavoidable. In a bad sense.

I'd like to take this chance to give my condolences to the whole family and everyone else who has been affected by this ONE person's death. It is such a tragedy. I may not know him well or even ever spoke to him but from the number of people that were present at his burial, I can imagine how much he was well loved. From the stories you can hear, you know that he was a good son, a good brother, a good nephew, a good friend.

Strangely, I'm almost envious of him - of the way he left the world. I know accidents are not among the best ways to go, but the fact that (from stories,) he managed to spend his time with his family towards the end, be able to tell them how much he loved them, even say his somewhat goodbyes to his girlfriend and last but not least, be able to recite the Yaasin himself. It's almost beautiful. Papa was saying that he might not have been able to cheat death since it was just his time to go, but at least he had the privilege to somewhat know that it was his time and he was able to make the most out of it.

You know, I hate the fact that even with someone that I barely know, I am able to tear up, feel genuine empathy for the people around him and silently mourn. I literally cannot and won't even try to imagine what would happen if it was someone who was very close to me that passed away. I don't know how I'd ever cope. I know life and death is a part of living. Papa keeps reminding of it. And life is short, to say the least. But. Argh, okay. I don't even wanna think about it.

Well anyway, insyallah tonight I'll recite the Yaasin for him and if anyone else who's reading this, is able to, and haven't done so, it would be great if you could recite the Al-Fatihah for him... Damn, I don't even remember his name.

Since I couldn't bare to attend the funeral (it would've been my second), this is my way of paying back. I'm really sorry for your loss and to not be able to be there with you through this hard time - Uncle Kas, Aunty Badariah, Muadz, Mukhris and everyone else who I can't even start to name cause I'm sure it would be a REALLY long list. I know he meant the world to most of you. He will be dearly missed by all. But I truly believe that he is in a better place. And hey, in the end Insyallah god willing, we will all be reunited again. That's the only thing that I think would keep me going at a time like this. Everyone will be reunited again. Someday.

*Al-Fatihah*

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Sunday, July 11, 2010

Had an overwhelming number of birthday wishes! Thank you everyone!!! Even had an awesome weekend at Aman Rimba in Janda Baik with the extended family. Wonderful place to have a break <3

Nikiee's coming back this Wednesday. Yay! Rindu!!!

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Friday, July 09, 2010

So. The 'culprit' who suggested having a party for my 21st birthday is none other than my sweet Aunty Saaniah. Lol. Which came as a shock when my mom told me. Cause you know, I told my mom not to have one since the next morning we'd be heading out for a family reunion and I'm sure everyone would want their rest before hand.

However, it's nice how all the aunties (and their families) are still coming even with such a short notice. Haha. Yay me! Awesome family ;)

The only regret I have is how I wish I had allowed my mom to spend a little more on my cake. I could have gotten one in the shape of 21! Sigh. Surprise backfire. Hm. Maybe I can get pretty cupcakes instead!

kawa Boo! blogged at 6:28 am

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Thursday, July 08, 2010

Guys. Universal Studios is fully booked on the 27th (like what??). Hm. So how?

kawa Boo! blogged at 3:34 pm

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I think me mummy's planning me a surprise birthday party!!!! Muahahahahahah!

Well, either that or I am an exceptionally vain person.... Wait. I am an exceptionally vain person.

Hm. I love me mummy!

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kawa Boo! blogged at 2:36 pm

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My reaction to my year 2 results (got them today):

"Alaaa!!!!"

Lol. I'm somewhat relieved (thankful I passed) and disappointed since I was expecting to get 80s and 90s - thanks to my reports and assignments, they manage to bring down my total score. Sigh. I wonder how everyone else did.

kawa Boo! blogged at 2:33 pm

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Tuesday, July 06, 2010

Can't wait for my weekend birthday!
Can't wait for Nikiee to come back.
Can't wait to get my results.
I just can't wait... It's gonna be an awesome upcoming week!
I can feel it.

kawa Boo! blogged at 3:29 pm

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but but..

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Monday, July 05, 2010

No ferrets. Yay! It's somewhat relieving. Can go shopping since I'm in dire need of a bag(check!andit'ssuperlawa!!!) and clothes. Muahahaha. Hence the good Saturday I had ;)) Fyi, I'm currently living out of a suitcase. Sigh.

Just to make the world seem fair, I was feeling cranky and super pissed off at anything and everything the whole of Sunday. Stupid hormones ;/ Well anyway, I woke up feeling pissy, so I stayed away from family to avoid blowing up in any of their faces. It didn't work and so after lunch, I went to see Tasha to maybe make things better. Uh, let's just say it wasn't as I planned. A lot of silence thanks to my (seem to be) incapability to make conversations or even keep up with one. Hate hate hate. I should write her a "my condolences" note for having such a crappy friend.

So anyway, I left early and thought maybe if I brought the kids out to the movies (Toy Story 3 - where I bumped into Miewa and Nadia) and do some shopping, everything bad would just go away. However, I forgot that thanks to my short temper (hormones) the kids were kindda driving me nuts. I'm so thankful they're so much more well behave than I last remember ;) But we went through the day without me strangling anyone. So that's a plus. On the other hand, scratched sylvia's tire rims. Hm. Sorry ma.

Oh! Oh! The best part was, when we were buying popcorn and drinks before the movie, this guy who was eeh, not bad looking asked for my number. Like, OMG! Hahaha. Awkwardly I smiled and nodded no. Ego-booster!!! YAY! <3

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Friday, July 02, 2010

Do I want a pair of baby ferrets? Like seriously, do I?? Is it enough to just want them?

..Or would I rather go shopping with the 800 ringgit?

Hee.

kawa Boo! blogged at 5:25 am

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